pengen nonton Forrest Gump blm kesampean juga... kayaknya keren filmnya.. nih posternya

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I'm like a spooonge right now.. Absorping everythinggg. Maybe I need a lot to learn._. Huah I love this life. I mean, I'm starting to love it again :)

Hehehe feeling poetic tonight..

Jadi, beberapa waktu ini gue belajar, gue mulai ngerti kalo gue gak seharusnya melakukan kebaikan dengan harapan balasan dari orang itu. Gue harusnya ikhlas aja. Walaupun dia ngelakuin hal buruk ke gue, I'll be fine kalo gue ikhlas. Dan gue akui gue salah selama ini. Gue belum tulus.

Terus, gue juga belajar, sabar itu banyak gunanya. Org2 yg ngerti posisi gue akan bilang 'lo udh gila? Lo ga capek sabar terus?'. Well, call me crazy, tp gue dpt hikmah dr kesabaran gue. Gue seneng skrg, apa yg pernah ilang mulai balik lg ke gue, bahkan gue dpt tambahan. Jd gue ngerasa untuk blg sabar ke org2 yg punya kesulitan itu bukan hal yang salah. Lo emg cm butuh sabar, mungkin susah tp lo bisa kalo lo yakin. Gimana lo tau kalo lo belom nyoba?

Ketiga, gue baru sadar kalo masih ada yg peduli sm gue. Ada org2 lain. Dan gue juga mau jd org2 lain itu. Org2 yg peduli sm temennya. Makanya gue gak segan2 bilang 'crt aja kl knp2' karena gue emg bakal dengerin semuanya, karena mereka jg udah peduliin gue. Mungkin itu bentuk terimakasih dari gue.

Keempat, belajar buat memaafkan. Mungkin susah, emang gaada yg gampang di dunia ini. Tp dengan lo maafin org2 yg bikin salah sama lo, lo jd bs tau kyk gimana rasanya kalo jd mereka. Walaupun kadang2 lo gak abis pikir knp mereka bisa ngelakuin hal kayak gitu ke elo. Dan pasti susah buat percaya lg sm mereka, tp kalo lo yakin (dan mereka emg niat) bahwa mereka akan berubah dan lo gak lupa buat berdoa, mereka insyaAllah akan berubah kok. Kadang lo jg perlu ngingetin mereka. Tp kita butuh org lain kan. Bs aja mereka butuh elo?

Hehehe udh ah capek mellow amat.. Dadah :*

okay.

1. so, lately, i found out that people aren't 'okay' like what i thought before. they're exactly like me. pretending, acting, hiding everything inside them. because they just knew, what will happen if there's a little leak in their wall. it happens to me, happens to everyone. and i give people with strength to be honest a standing ovation. because i'm a coward. i am. and i never understand why would people salute me for my ability to hide things. what's so cool about being fake?


2. time heals. you'll say that you're 'okay' some times after something bad happens. even though you said your heartache won't heal, but it does. you'll gain more memories and you'll erase some you don't want. yeah, it might sound too simple, but that's what happened to me, i had fun and... bam! i'm happy now.. i'm happy again..


3. what i mean 'okay' here is not like 'umm.. okay...' but it's more like 'okay, i'm good' it might not be easy, because sometimes your ego controls you, but i learnt a lot of things, a lot of things about forgiving, about time, about ego-controlling, about mind stating, and nothing is wrong about trying. 


4. no secret should be hid in a relationship. lies won't help. trust me.

1. ryt. maybe for some ppl, you wud see me as a pretender. well yeah, i always pretend that nothing happened. but inside me there's a scar that won't heal because of you which cannot be hidden, and i would never ever be friends with you again, like i never did before.

2. if you miss him, tell me, i wudn't hate u this much. but all you did is telling ppl about a common things done by youngsters like us. i saw ppl did smthn worse than what me and my boy did, and u know it, but why do you have to blame us? like we are full of sins. look at yourself, i would've dig my own grave if i were you.

3. i hate you. fuck off t(-_-t)

watch this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBrlYtV60GA. the embed code is disabled by Michael Buble's channel. right lemme tellya

the song title is "Hollywood" and i like this song because the song is so catchy that you would like it the first time you heard it. and what i wanna show you in that video is the first celebrity he impersonates, it was Justin Bieber and it is super funny! he even threw his bangs the way JB does and he danced with his feets in Justin's hoodies! that was hilarious and i watched that video over and over because i can't stop laughing hahahahha. and the lyrics in that part was:

could you be a teenage idol

could you be a movie star

when i turn on my tv

will you smile and wave at me

telling Oprah who you are

HHAAHAHAHAHAHA LOLLLLLL THAT'S SO JUSTIN BIEBER!!! i adoooooore buble!!! he's super cool. nobody ever came out in that idea ryt????? it's a must watch!! watch!!!!!

y'know? me hate u. mind ur own fckn business.

i knw ur life is a huge mess u cant fckn control.

face it, ppl dont lyk when u act lyk ure the boss.

and when u act lyk ure a very wise philosopher, bcs ure absolutely not.

here, lemme tellya.

if ur 'friends' in ur 'big circle' even hate ur fckn drama thingy,

how do u think the ppl OUTSIDE ur 'circle' wld lyk u?

dmn i hate u so fckn much.

middle finger,

marchy.

Hhhhhhey again....... Damn this whole 'turning-back-to-the-times' thing shows me that what Corrine Bailey Rae said in her song... 'The more thing seems to change, the more it stays the same' and I don't want to go back to those times where I was such a jerk. People may call me bitch or whtvr and that's because I can't control my huge ego. I was so selfish. I would've killed myself if I could ever go back to that situation. It was terrible. I shouldn't be doing this. I'm happy with the things God gave me. Bye.

i'm in love with Adhitia Sofyan's new album.. Forget Your Plans... damn cool... above is the album cover :) and you can download the full album here! bye~~~

this is super touching :')

After The Rain

Words and music by Adhitia Sofyan

About the song :

The simple thought of missing someone that’s far far away.

If I could bottled the smell of the wet land after the rain

I’d make it a perfume and send it to your house

If one in a million stars suddenly will hit satellite

I’ll pick some pieces, they’ll be on your way

In a far land across

You’re standing at the sea

Then the wind blows the scent

And that little star is there to guide me

If only I could find my way to the ocean

I’m already there with you

If somewhere down the line

We will never get to meet

I’ll always wait for you after the rain