I'm sorry I haven't been able to show you how much you mean to me. I'm sorry I haven't been able to make you trust me. I'm sorry I was stupid. I would never let anyone down, especially you. I'm willing to change for the better. I wish you could see it in me. I wish you could understand.

I don't know how to explain and describe how I feel about you. All I know is that I want you in my life. And I don't know if i would ever get a chance to tell you everything you always wanted to know, but I want you.

Lama nggak ngepost disini. Kangen sama blog ini. Walaupun isinya emang galau tapi ngangenin.

Sekarang udah masuk semester 4 dan I'm so glad that I've found someone I can take as a best friend, a partner, an older brother, and a boyfriend. Someone I can always rely on. Someone who is willing to spend his time for me no matter what :''') *sobs* 

By the way, gue baru sadar bahwa disini gue ngomong sendiri. Gue cerita sama diri gue sendiri dan blog ini beneran jadi diary gue....................(apa?!)

Sebenar-benarnya adalah gue seneng. Seneng banget bisa jadi bagian dari hidup dia, tapi gue juga ngerasa takut banget. Takut bakal ngecewain dan bakal ngasih pengaruh buruk. Gue kan gak boleh kayak gitu.

Hhhhh. Berdoa ajadeh.